Quitting on my dream

Posted on August 9, 2013 at 1:05 PM Comments comments (0)

I had to repost this status that I shared on Facebook the other day because I didn't want it to get lost in FB world. I wanted to close by to read and read again.  I am sure that I will need it. The road to self love and acceptance is often a long one and it has been for me. I am getting there but days like this it never hurts to have reminders.....

The last few weeks have been very difficult. I have finally had t...

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Stressful Relationships

Posted on April 10, 2013 at 12:05 PM Comments comments (0)

When talking about stress management, I have learned (or at least I believe) that the majority of our stress stems from relationships.


(photo source)

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My Most Recent Epiphany - Rollercoaster Year

Posted on October 26, 2012 at 9:25 PM Comments comments (0)

This past year has been a roller coaster for me. I have lived and learned, fallen and grown every single day and I am so grateful. This past week I have had a bit of a revelation about why some of the issues that I have struggled with have been so confusing for me. This revelation comes on the heels of a few weeks of anxiety. 

I still have a number of friends who are preparing to compete in a few short weeks. And everytime I see a post that small part of me is jealous. ...

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Why I Think we Should Stop the Fight Against Bullying

Posted on October 13, 2012 at 1:05 PM Comments comments (0)

In light of recent news events both provincially and nationally I could not let this go by without commenting.....


News stories, Facebook pages, emails....all about bullying and its devastating effects. But will it matter? Does it make a difference?

How about too little too late, in my humble opinion! Lives are lost, self esteem void, dreams shattered......all that is l...

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Introducing Meghan!

Posted on September 19, 2012 at 4:35 AM Comments comments (1)

Hello everyone! My name is Meghan and I am (almost) 27 years old. I am definitely new to the whole blogging thing but I have always wanted to write in one so I am excited to get the opportunity with Lesley.


I am someone who has always exercised and ate healthily most of the time. Throughout university, although I was very busy, I found it easy to sch...

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Pity Party: Sometimes You Just Want to Throw in the Towel

Posted on August 18, 2012 at 6:35 PM Comments comments (0)

Welcome to my party!

People are so quick to note and appreciate my honesty so this post will be no different. My blog has been a bit quiet over the summer which is quite normal as people are on the go and there is no real routine or structure. Especially in my world! We spend a good portion of our time camping and travelling in the season of sun and this yea...

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Why is it all a Competition?

Posted on June 19, 2012 at 10:15 AM Comments comments (1)

I often forget how I used to feel. And since we know that thoughts create feelings, how I used to think.

Now when I see and hear of people with malice and negativity I often find myself questioning how and why, not in judgement but more out of pity. I should try to empathize, I was there. I have come a long way but sometimes I too slip occasionally. 

I have come to realize that most of the time when people think ill of others or wish to inf...

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The Scale Still Gets in my Head Too Sometimes

Posted on May 28, 2012 at 9:25 AM Comments comments (0)

I can not lie, and anyone who reads any of my posts knows that I am very open here and what you see is what you get. I do not ever profess to have it "all figured out" by any means. But for the most part I do ok and I love to share my experience in the hope of helping someone else.

Yes,I still have some...

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"You look like that all the time"

Posted on April 27, 2012 at 12:10 PM Comments comments (0)

For anyone who has grown up with self esteem issues (ok, who hasn't right?), looking at pictures of themself is usually a painful ordeal.

We automatically criticize the first and every subsequent flaw we can find. It is a reflex right? I am learning the past few months that it is one that we can change; and it gets better with age!

When I spoke about this recently a friend and client said it was because I was getting closer to forty. She has witnessed so ma...

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Who Are You Blaming?

Posted on March 20, 2012 at 7:25 PM Comments comments (0)

Living in Darkness...Has anyone seen my mojo?

Posted on March 7, 2012 at 5:20 PM Comments comments (0)

I said to a close friend the other day that I have felt, the past few weeks, like I have been living in a big black hole. No real reason in particluar. Just unenergetic, unmotivated, quiet, sometimes cranky, uninspired.

Maybe it is simply the winter blues. But throw in some female hormones and you don't get a great combination.

But it has passed off again, for the most part, and my mojo seems...
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Disordered Eating ~ My Ongoing Journey

Posted on February 29, 2012 at 12:25 PM Comments comments (1)


“Stop trying to LOOK like a fighter and BE a fighter.”

(from Prayfit Daily earlier this week)


Wow! What profound words. How about if I words it like this…


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No More Competitions for Me

Posted on February 24, 2012 at 12:45 PM Comments comments (7)


It has taken me a while for me to come down off of the high from the competition back in the fall, but the time has come, and the past few months have been a struggle in many ways as I return to “normal”.


Anyone who has been following my blog or who has read my story, knows how

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Naive and Paranoid - Yep That's Me!

Posted on February 16, 2012 at 5:35 PM Comments comments (2)

I am who I am. I am learning and growing just like so many of you; and I make lots of mistakes.

I am blessed to have acquired some very useful information that I believe it is important to share, with those who need it and more importantly, those who want it. The truth is that not everyone who needs it, wants it, so that is something that I struggle with - keeping my mouth shut and my enthusiasm at bay.

I am a smart woman. I have always been qui...

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February 15, 2012 - quick update

Posted on February 15, 2012 at 5:45 AM Comments comments (0)

Quick update....

Here's hoping you survived Valentine's day (or singles awareness day for my unattached friends). We actually went out to eat - which we seldom do! It was so nice NOT to have to prepare the meal and clean it up. I had a yummy pan fried cod with potato and veggies and a yummy brownie obsession thingy for dessert which I thoroughly enjoyed. But today, it is back to real life and real food nutrition for me, and my body will thank me for it later I am sure.

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What Do You Want More?

Posted on January 31, 2012 at 6:45 PM Comments comments (0)

Conflicting goals. That is me. This is something that I struggle with when it comes to my training. Not so much my nutrition as I have learned what makes me feel good and bad and what gives me lots of energy and what leaves me flat. But when it comes to my training it is a different story.

My contest prep this past fall was fabulous. I loved it! So much fun. And the first time in a long time that I was enjoying my training. But in the back of my head there was always that pa...

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How I Got Rid of my Good 'Ole Catholic Guilt

Posted on January 26, 2012 at 10:00 AM Comments comments (2)

As I posted in my last entry, I grew up in a Catholic family; both my Mother and Father are Catholic. So I came by my guilt honestly. They didn't do it on purpose, it is just a natural consuquence of growing up in the church- atleast it was for me.

I learned about sins and lots of them. How to repent. How to confess. How to ask for forgiveness. And to pray.

I will never forget the feeling of making my first reconciliation. At that ti...

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Faith, Fitness and Facebook

Posted on January 26, 2012 at 9:20 AM Comments comments (1)

I am not sure if anyone will actually read thisbut here I go....

Yesterday I deactivated BOTH of my Facebook accounts (which is why I am not sure if anyone will read this.....), and subsequently my business page. I am sure that I will be back as I realize just how important a tool this is for me, especially with my isolated, geographical location; but it was necessary for the time being.

I need some more focused time; and being home all day and ...

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The Next Step in my Journey.....No Holds Barred

Posted on January 15, 2012 at 3:15 PM Comments comments (0)

So I can honestly say that I have proved to myself and probably to many of you, that finding a healthy balance in terms of my fitness and nutrition was a win. I was quite happy with what I did in competition prep considering the time and effort that I put in.

But....I must be honest; something has been bothering me ever since. Well, I don't know if bothering is the right word..... something has been pushing me to move forward.

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Tummy Tuck....The truth?

Posted on January 12, 2012 at 3:20 PM Comments comments (2)

I think that asking if I had "work done" was probably the strangest, most backwards, yet flattering comment that I received on any of my pictures from the day of the competition.

But I decided to post this picture to show you a little something that you can not always see in the pics on the internet or in magazines....but more often than not, it is there.

I was blessed to have had two incredibly healthy pregnancies and babies and although I did survive with...

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